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Cant put the blame on him cz its my choice to stay at his home. Thought that i can spend a lot of time and get back to the normal way we used to be.. but idk.. still hoping.. lot of things going thru my mind. Positive and negative, wish i can stop it. Just hope this will end with good things when i get home. Just hope he will back to way he used to be. That sweet, romantic, loyal and ofc fucking cute boyfriend.. i swear i really missed the old him. Its all happened after... idk i thought wanna clear up all my ss photos in my phone and laptop but darn its truly hurts.. every lil and silly things we used to do and laugh, words.. long text messages to make each other feel loved, respect, love.... its fading.. wish i can turn back time just to have him back.. just so you kno, no matter what i do, he will never kno that i truly love him just the way he was.. i wish... and still wishing...........