Im so bad in everything. Tell me, where did i go wrong anw? Why the right thing feels all wrong? WHY?

pathetic me

Should stop doing everything.. such a waste. I cant change him anyways. If he really wanna change, he will. I cant do anything bout it though. Seeking for attention... hes my boyfriend??? Is it necessary/fair for a girlfriend who trying as f as she can to be the best but he just do nothing?? I guess im nothing to you anymore..